What is love and when will I find it?

I'm carrying this huge vessel full of love, I want to give it but not to anyone out there but someone special. Sometimes I think even just someone who would let me love him.

Of course I want some back. Sometimes I think this is no good, after all you are supposed to be giving. Wanting love is selfish. I meditate myself back into a balance but that's like a friend of mind said "being hungry and trying to pretend that you are not".

So why can't I never find love? In hindsight, timing seems to be a problem and sometimes bad communication. I learn to be patient and also make sure my messages are very clear and timely.

There are also people who don't know how to love and are not interested to find out. Or people who think love is sex or those who can fake it.

For me love would start from the initial sexual attraction. It's the hook Mother Nature gave us. I'd enjoy it but I know that passion is bound to fade. That's why I'm looking for someone I can share my values and objectives with. When those basics are right, you can build on them. Once the passion's subsided, the relationship can evolve if you got the basics right.

Mutual spiritual growth is probably the goal of any relationship (for me anyway). Also when the core things are right I can overlook a lot of flaw. Nobody is perfect. I can love a person for the good person that they are. I admire principles, purity, integrity. I can give a sound, time-proof, unconditional love - once my conditions are satisfied.