What is love and when will I find it?

I'm carrying this huge vessel full of love, I want to give it but not to anyone out there but someone special. Sometimes I think even just someone who would let me love him.

Of course I want some back. Sometimes I think this is no good, after all you are supposed to be giving. Wanting love is selfish. I meditate myself back into a balance but that's like a friend of mind said "being hungry and trying to pretend that you are not".

So why can't I never find love? In hindsight, timing seems to be a problem and sometimes bad communication. I learn to be patient and also make sure my messages are very clear and timely.

There are also people who don't know how to love and are not interested to find out. Or people who think love is sex or those who can fake it.

For me love would start from the initial sexual attraction. It's the hook Mother Nature gave us. I'd enjoy it but I know that passion is bound to fade. That's why I'm looking for someone I can share my values and objectives with. When those basics are right, you can build on them. Once the passion's subsided, the relationship can evolve if you got the basics right.

Mutual spiritual growth is probably the goal of any relationship (for me anyway). Also when the core things are right I can overlook a lot of flaw. Nobody is perfect. I can love a person for the good person that they are. I admire principles, purity, integrity. I can give a sound, time-proof, unconditional love - once my conditions are satisfied.

Why Gay Men Never Mature

It is women who make men mature. Women become adults through childbirth, or even earlier through the menarche. For them, there is not escaping adulthood. Mother Nature drags them into that by the scruff of the neck, it's a bloody affair.

In the absence of initiation ceremonies in our society, men stay boys until they die. Their toys become bigger and more expensive - car, career, bank account, gadgets - but very few actually mature without the pressure from women. Or to be more correct, the woman, a wife or a girlfriend who would pressurise her beloved sperm donor into the responsibilities of child-rearing and upkeeping a household.

So what about the men who never experience that benign female influence, gay men? They stay true boys for life, stuck for ever in the Peter Pan Land.You see them prancing in skimpy tanktops and partying until grey hair becomes impossible to dye.

Have you ever tried to make an appointment with a gay man? It is one of the most frustrating affairs in the world. Constantly on the lookout for a better dick they are shit-scared of any kind of commitment be it even a casual date. A slightest perspective of getting laid and they ditch you and stand you up without a second thought.

That is why I would think more than twice before letting a gay couple adopting a kid. I'd make them pass a tough exam to weed out those who only care about accesorising. Unlike lesbians, who I think make bets parents in the world, gay guys are just real men after all, biologically programmed to "aim, shoot and run". Women, on the other hand, are biologically programmed to choose the most powerful mate and make sure that their progeny survives. To accomplish the latter they, by hook or by crook, involve the male.

Of course, we've evolved to be highly complex social animals since our ape phase but the core stays true nonetheless.